Sufferings the glory of the church?

Paul, to the Church in Ephesus:
"I ask you, therefore, not to be discouraged because of my sufferings for you, which are your glory."

How does suffering mark the church in America? Do we glory in it when we see it or do we run from it? My suffering is not a mark for the church. My suffering is harm for the church. On most days, I do not have a Biblical mind-set. My passion for God seems less than my passion for me. I am a suffering Christian. And my kind of suffering- it is not good for the church. God, thank you for your mercy- it never ends for me- and make me who I need to be for Your Church.